like idek how to explain the feeling i have on it, when j started it i had just ended a yr long manic episode and had been catatonically depressed for 5 months to the point where i would not get out of bed more than once a day (when i literally could not hold it anymore), had to cut full matts out of my hair, it was genuinely worse than i ever thought it could get. but now im just like… even??? i feel free😭