HAHA SAME Except I used to always be able to happy mask or find some sort of joy I've struggled with serious depression since I was 9, got my Bipolar I diagnosis at 18 And now at 26, due to external and internal situations, I'm just....like.....bled of everything. I've NEVER been this low. Ever. I physically can't make my mouth form a smile. And when I do, it can't reach my eyes. My life is so fucking horrible and depressing. And it's mostly my own fault. I should've made wiser choices.

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