rayrose
I wish I could stop craving love. I wish I didn’t want it so badly and worry about it so much. How do I stop wanting something I will never have?That’s not possible when you haven’t experienced all you need to experience and meet all the people that will love you in the future. Change how you see this. It is not a problem. When you aren’t receiving external love, the solution is to maximize your self love. When you love your self more and focus on what you can control (like getting yourself something you couldn’t in the past or telling yourself you’re doing good as you are, take it one step at a time),—-
There is no point in trying to suppress something that legit is supposed to help you experience life because that’s the point of living. Don’t get roped in by society’s expectations of what love requires because you have the control over it. I have always loved and wanted love so badly and when I learned i can turn it back to myself in the simplest ways, I could live the rest of my days in my own space.
And I say all this because nobody will ever know you as well as you know yourself and that’s because you spend times with yourself that nobody will ever see or experience at least not the same as your original experience. you know all the intricate tiny things about yourself before anybody else should, it is a blessing that you can give yourself the hug and the love that you need before external factors can use it against you or mistreat it.
Sorry for the ESSAY, but with this privilege, you should change your perspective. Thinking about it from the perspective of waiting for external factors to validate and meet your needs when it may not be the time for that you may not be in a position that results in that happening yet. The blessing is that the timeframe without something is when you should be turning your need for that feeling towards yourself. Especially to minimize bad experiences with people that don’t deserve it.