i don’t want to be helpless and i resent my inability to be resilient and proactive in this sort of shit (i have deep conflict avoidance) and at the same time just fuckkk what do you mean the little girl inside me is still there speaking. what do you mean my heart is still hers and that it’s still breaking along the same lines and i have to take care of her and myself and ughhh. ughhhhhhhh. i need a vacation.