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Neurodivergent 1d
I feel like I’m in a functional freeze, context in comments
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Anonymous 1d

I want to blame the weather, today it only feels like a low 60. I’m more of a 75+ and sunny person to even feel like I’m alive and out of the winter depression states. But I didn’t wake up till 9:30, nonetheless got out of bed till 1:30. Didn’t leave my house until 3. I wanted to go work out. I go to a secluded parking lot with a trail. But it felt so cold to me I couldn’t do it, behind my eyes and my brain feel so tired and foggy. Could also be I didn’t do anything until 4 yesterday

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 1d

I just drove around and until 9:30 I went to the gym and left at 11:30, home at 12. Slept at 4:30 am. I had a migraine yesterday too. I feel like a lazy shit bag. And PF closes at 10 today, 7 tmrw. Which also makes me feel worse bc I don’t have close friends, location and relation. So the gym is my only public outing to be around ppl and just watch a bit. What’s a girl to do with her weekends then, I only feel motivated past 9pm to even go or do any type of chore as well.

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 1d

Lastly, I don’t have a job. Or at least solid income. I have a part time I hate and haven’t been fired full time past college despite my degree and teaching license. There’s no positions for my subject. Only SPED parapro or RBT work. Not what I want to do for the rest of my life. Beyond that I have been nannying 3 days out the week and it’s 2-3 hrs away at my sisters. It just ruins my schedule of what I have planned for myself and working out. I don’t have time to do anything for myself there

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 1d

Even bRushing my teeth is hard to fit in while watching a 10m old. I’m not a mother. Idgaf abt him watching Mrs Rachel if i genuinely have nothing else to do to try And get him engaged. It’s just hard. Not for me. I need other ppl. Adults. Movement. It’s been really killing my mental load. I feel so fucking frozen I have no motivation, no momentum. I jus don’t feel like there’s life behind my eyes lately

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