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Neurodivergent 8w
genuinely think i am autistic. have sought help but nowhere near me offers anything that can tell me. i think i had such low energy at work yesterday i couldn’t “mask” my behaviors while serving and did so poorly/embarrassed myself all night.
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Anonymous 8w

i am close to my boss/owner of the bar and i could tell she was irritated in my performance and so were my coworkers. i can’t explain it well but i literally had almost no control and it made me panic sm. the panic and strong feelings of shame and humiliation built up all night until i couldn’t stop myself from crying in the storage room. this has literally been a pattern for me now where i perform well, then can’t seem to get it right in public, then i breakdown. im so nervous to go in today bc

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 8w

ik my coworkers have had to deal with me and my issues and i couldn’t comprehend they were my issues. i feel so drained from having to perform almost everyday. but i do well in it usually, but yesterday was the worst for me. i want to explain this somehow to my boss without making excuses i just feel so stuck bc ik ppl were irritated and frustrated and i tried so hard but to them it looks like i wasn’t trying enough. and they have to deal with an overly emotional girl but i rlly just get so

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 8w

overwhelmed and panicked and scared in these moments that i can’t control the way i start crying and keep crying. at first they dealt w it as the new girl, but i think they’re fed up. idk what to do im so scared to be around them today pls help i want to let my boss know i wasn’t trying to do so bad and i couldn’t fix it. how do i get over this humiliation to be able to function okay around everyone again literally a day after

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