I stopped taking my Ritalin because it’s a high dosage that’s been making me mad depressed and my family is making me feel like shit because they hate being around me when I’m off it. I feel like they prefer me miserable if it makes their life easier
Sounds like it’s time to visit your Dr & discuss what other meds might work well for you. I think you are seeing this as a black & white issue but you have more options you have not yet tried.