
I’ve had this type of thought so many times, even though I’m chronically ill enough to know firsthand that any time I end up seriously unwell that just becomes a whole additional layer of stress it’s so cosmically senseless that we’re stuck in this society (joker.gif, I know I know 😭) where we’re under so much pressure day-to-day that a different kind of suffering becomes practically aspirational bc it seems in our minds like a vacation by contrast
sorry to be long-winded, but I wanna add that I know this has to be an extremely common experience, because there’s a whole TV anime where the reveal at the end hinges on a bunch of different kinds of people putting themselves in the hospital (and creating hoaxes to justify what happened to them) to escape their overwhelmingly stressful lives. used to be a fairly popular series and everything