I deal with this! I havent bought a bed for my new apartment. I think because I dont feel like I deserve it but Also I don’t feel stable or secure here and dont want to ‘make my bed’ in this place. When I’m not at work I just watch Youtube all day, from wake to pass out, because I dont lay down and go to sleep anymore. But today I got out with this dude I met at work. He’s got a puppy, we played some basketball, went on a walk, talked about God… Its all about healthy relationship nsenseofpurpose
Neurodiversity is real. Some kinds can make you feel lazy and useless. My mom used to slap me and ask me how someone so smart could be so stupid. If my room looked like a disaster area, my parents would make me stay in there till it was clean. They let me out to use the bathroom and eat, but that’s it. No electronics, nothing. Could I help that I would get sidetracked and read whole books or draw pictures or daydream? Nope. So glad my doctor told my parents to get me tested
Hahaha this !!!!!! My immigrant parents literally didn’t believe in my mental illness. Being diagnosed and having to take pills to literally function and my mother goes “why didn’t you tell me you weren’t ok” oh mother I tried. I told her and my dad I felt suicidal and his response was “I’ll give you something to feel suicidal about” then beat me. Like this is why children don’t share how they feel
My parents literally say they *do* believe in mental health. Yet they both just stopped treating my adhd for no reason when I was a kid and told me I didn’t have it leading to me getting zero support and then they vicim blamed me when I struggled and they just called me lazy. I never got beat but they sure as shit are hypocrites. Like they say they’re super big on mental health yet they just let me drown with a learning disability for my whole childhood and teenage years without once offering
I don’t remember well enough to say. But it’s very possible that was the case. It’s also possible they genuinely didn’t work for me but either way they still didn’t offer any help or to take me to a psychiatrist when I expressed to them dozens of times over many years “I am struggling in school and can’t focus and I’m constantly behind and it’s stressful”. So. Still fuck you guys :)
bruh i just want to let you know i relate so hard. i also have immigrant parents and anytime me or my siblings tried to talk to my mom she’d never listen, tell us that we don’t know what it’s like to struggle and have depression and then she’d guilt trip us with her life story like it was our fault. apparently we aren’t allowed to struggle or have feelings. im actually trying to get diagnosed and it’s so aggravating bc the signs were there but also aggravating bc i have childhood trauma.