I worry that I am somehow doing master levels of gaslighting and lying to myself about the past

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And then you’re afraid of getting “caught” even though you’re doing nothing wrong?

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Yeah getting my voice to make the right tone is such a concerted effort one time I accidentally sounded like I was sassing my doctor and he laughed and got into follow up question mode and I felt bad because I was just trying to agree with him but it came out wrong and I felt like I was trying to oppose him on purpose when it literally just came out weirdly and aghh

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