I wouldn’t think that way, I mean if you don’t wanna be in relationships thats ok. But don’t sell yourself short, I think the way you notice this about yourself makes you more aware of what comforts you and therefore shows a lot of strength.

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I’m also autistic and I feel this way too, but what the things about myself that are obviously really different from other people I start to love about myself. Idk this just helps me not to go down that rabbit hole of thinking about I’m not good enough to be in a relationship.

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I do this exact same thing except I sit up and rock back and forth instead of curling in a ball. I’ve done this since I was 4 lol. It’s def a stress reliever

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I feel you bro. I know it’s hard but try not to be so hard on yourself. You never know when you’ll meet someone with similar interests. They’re out there, I promise.

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