I meant I can't tell if this person dreads to do another session with me vs not dreading it And therapists themselves admit they ike/dislike clients. Also I don't think its healthy to pretend what folks are supposed to do and actively do are the same. Not saying you said that but you corrected me without considering the reality. Therapist really do be out here loving or hating their clients. Even if they aren't supposed to.
Some people use “lol” or “lmfao” at the ends of their words as a reflex, to break up tense feelings, or for other reasons rather than actual laughter, I’ve noticed. But maybe they are laughing, I can’t tell. Also I feel the same way about my therapist. I’m probably one of her only adult clients and I’ve not had any progress for a while and I’m also autistic and it’s just hard to click with her. I feel like she probably dislikes our sessions too. Then again, I pay her so i can’t care
And yes that's what I meant. I meant exactly what I said. I can't tell if the therapist loves me or hates me and I agree with the other person that the therapist should really just be caring for you. So I'll keep that in mind.. Still I can't say I know if I'm genuinely cared for or the therapist cant believe I actually booked another session. And after all this time together I'm not so sure Th e sessions have been helpful or even healthy.
And same as you I figure well I will keep going because in case this therapist despises seeing me coming I am at least paying the rm for their time. But... I'd really appreciate spending time with someone I can discern genuinely cares for my well-being and is aiming to help me and is being ethical and doing their job. This seems hard to find. And I think that feeling the “click” you describe. I think I'd get MORE out of the sessions too!! ☺️