hey #1, let’s not stigmatize neurodivergence in the neurodivergent community

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Nothing happened to me, but I spent most of middle school and high school building a fake version of my personality that everyone likes better. I’ve kept that up for so long that I’m pretty sure I couldn’t be my genuine self even if I wanted to. I hate being autistic.

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yes #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #cptsd

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You absolutely deserve to mourn the hypothetical trajectories

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absolutely yes!! in fact i have to figure that the reason it’s somewhat of a cliche is because so many traumatized people end up feeling similarly, one way or another

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You’re still there, u have to rediscover urself

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I absolutely feel this way, but I’m ALSO trans and thinking I may be borderline as well. So I really, really feel like I am killing the person I was born as

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Don’t let your past control you, you have the power to make change and reclaim your future!

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definitely. i was not supposed to turn out this way or maybe i was but needed the push into this direction. but why couldn’t i do that by like reading a book instead of little me experiencing that and hating myself? still cry about the hatred i had towards little me and now i just want to hug her. crying again 😋

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I didnt have a bad past but somehow I still feel like this and carry a lot of pain

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I was a energetic loud and crazy kid growing up and then alot of shit happened one of which was bullying for being different and I became a quiet and reserved teen all throughout highschool. But i think the change in scenery and lifestyle (college), and even just being diagnosed has helped in reviving that old me, especially with the help of my bf/friends who has really help let my guard down and be as unfiltered as i like

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Um yes. It started when my mom made her disgusted face and told me to stop talking like a baby but that was just my voice. So I have a new voice now

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I have DID. This is my actual reality

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I will forever grieve the life I could’ve/would’ve had

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I think life is about losing yourself and finding yourself, creating yourself over and over, shedding skins and getting closer and closer to your true self. It’s not linear tho but yeah

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abso fucking loutely

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I feel like the person I am is not who I was meant to be. Like my nurture mother me into someone that is misaligned with my nature idk

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This!! Along with dissociative amnesia, I feel like I just kinda “spawned in” at 16 😭😭😭

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yeah :( i spent my entire time in high school mourning the kid i used to be and the personality i had and just the way i viewed life. all of it got stripped from me via trauma.

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Yeah but I don’t really care ab the hypothetical at this point. I like who I am (but yeah, I get irritated I’m not perfect especially when I can see exactly where that bad behavior started.)

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I think it was the birth-related trauma more than the childhood trauma for me, I never had a fighting chance. But that thought is kind of freeing in a way?

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Absolutely. Was anyone else raised in a cult? CPTSD and religious trauma for the win ig lol

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No matter what, this is the case. No one is the same person they used to be. You can and will change again

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Lost myself pretty hard. it’s been very, very difficult

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I always felt not like myself when I was on a heavy dose of my medication for ADHD once I switched it up I branched out with my more ADHD personality, but I love it. Makes me unique! Totally normal to feel that way.

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personality disorder moment

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Oh for sure, but also kind of not just with the fucked up stuff, but in general too

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Yes but also my therapist suspects I have DID/OSDD

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could you give some more context? i’m not sure im following

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