
ask him his preferred way for you to initiate so you’re on the same page. some guys are ok with you just taking their pants off and going for it and others want you to ask explicitly beforehand. direct communication beforehand is the best way to avoid awkwardness or feelings of rejection. just remember that sex is one of the most important things humans do as a species and a high sex drive means you’re healthy and love to enjoy yourself.
I am a lesbian so perhaps our experiences differ a bit so take this with a grain of salt if need be! I feel alot of guilt and shame about initiating intimacy too (thank you Catholic Church)but the more I have gathered my courage and done it even if I was nervous or felt gross the Easier and less gross it gets :)