Anonymous #1 2d

like it sounds kinda silly but i always thought dating apps were extremely hard to use because it had the implications of sex built into it within our heteronormative society. i’d use it for two weeks, gather some socials from good connections (never a phone number), and then delete the entire account after those ~14 days to explore those connections to see if we could be friends first.

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Anonymous #1 2d

I’ve had better luck with getting actual conversations out of bumble and hinge matches but I feel like they all inevitably hit some sort of dead end. There was one guy I really liked and I actually worked up the nerve to ask if he wanted to meet and he said yes and then ghosted me

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Anonymous #1 2d

I’m also just really terrible at making friends and I never actually know where I stand with people and it just makes it so hard. Like I always end up thinking that a friendship is stronger than the other person thinks it is if that makes sense. I’m always the inviter and never the invitee and I don’t even ask people to hang out much because I’m so worried about coming off as annoying. Like I’m constantly afraid that someone’s gonna see me as a burden and idk what to do to fix that mindset

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Anonymous OP 2d

that happens so easily with this digital dating world because there’s no “repercussions” really. i mean i had people cancel even when I was 30min into an hour commute to where we were going to meet for lunch (my hometown tho) 😐

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Anonymous OP 2d

it will probably take a while, but your authenticity will snag someone good some day. i swear it. my partner and i happened to meet via mutuals online who’d met us both in person at national events. he had gone the one year i couldn’t make it. we were long distance for 2 years (over 1000miles) and he moved in last fall, just had our 3rd anniversary!

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Anonymous #1 2d

Aww wait that’s so cute I’m so glad you found something so amazing!

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Anonymous OP 2d

i am that person too so i see you, friend. that’s why i commented bc im like “this person is just another version of me” lol. i’m 28 and i can tell you i can count my friends on two hands, and that second hand is not full 😂 not only that, none of them live near me. some live 50mi away, others over 2000mi away! you’ll find your people, and they will make it clear how important you are to them. even if it’s just five people by the time you’re 30. ❤️

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Anonymous OP 2d

just counted and i genuinely think it’s six but i panicked for a moment bc i was like wait did i just lie and it’s actually just five LMAO 😂 so not including my brother or my partner as a best friend, i only have six friends and ALL of which have only formed within the last 10 years of my life once i got to college and i didn’t even have all six the whole time either!

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Anonymous OP 2d

all of which to say, YOU WILL FIND YOUR PEOPLE

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Anonymous #1 2d

I’ve gotten a lot better about putting myself out there over the last year (I got a job that required working really closely with a staff of 50 that introduced me to a lot of opportunities), but I still just feel like I’m stuck and I haven’t figured out how to find a middle ground or adjust to where I am. Thank you for commenting and listening to my ramblings lol. Fingers crossed I’ll be able to build those stronger relationships but I can’t say I’m surprised you did with how kind you’ve been

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Anonymous OP 2d

most people say they’re surprised i don’t have many friends when they meet me too. 😂 the autism makes long term friendship pretty difficult sometimes! the strong sense of justice tends to drive people away lol 😵‍💫 but i’m very thankful for those close true friendships

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