I felt this so hard but it’s not too late! Smth that’s gradually helping me is making myself to go to events and hang out with ppl. Whenever I’m too anxious for that I just exist in an area where there’s other ppl (going for a walk in a populated area, hanging out in the library, etc). I’m still awkward as hell and haven’t made any friends, but the anxiety of being perceived isn’t as bad as it used to be