
Like WOW I’m so happy and slightly jealous everyone somehow has managed their own business or got a degree with a high job demand. Times shifted while I was studying that isn’t my fault. I don’t have money saved to move out by myself or manage to find a roommate. I’m struggling and I know it looks bad when I’m the only person I know in my life who is still at home. Or that maybe i should have and will go military at this point to PROVE a point that my ‘friends’ don’t think I could make it.
example, my small ring of friends mainly live together. When someone moved out. I wasn’t even considered as an option to even bring up that point, and I had no idea someone else was already moving in. It would have been nice, closer to my then job. Finally having a space I felt free-er in. My hook ups don’t think I’m mature bc I live at home and I’m ‘quirky’ but oh well I’ve always been this way, I can’t change it. I removed myself from all spaces to make a point and change. Haven’t returned.
Even my ex. Or exes for that matter. They have their own place, doing jobs that are wayyyy to easy for the money they make that I could do as well. Haven’t gotten hired. What’s MORE mature than education? Not even early education, Middle school and high school is serious work. Nope, I’m just a silly teacher who is a parapro and I ‘play’ all day. I just can’t escape it. Even my family if they could tell me how to breathe they would