On the contrary, there’s overwhelming evidence proving Gods existence. I’m sorry you haven’t had the opportunity to look into them but I’d gladly provide you some links to help you start your research. Anyone who sincerely looks into theology comes to the conclusion that God exists. There’s a reason the greatest minds believed in Him, because they were intellectually honest enough to actually investigate what they believed.
it’s “shitty,” because it’s unhealthy, but people do unhealthy things all the time and if you are sober not because you had a problem but for money and health reasons then “breaking” it on a special occasion isn’t really breaking it because you’re not affecting your money or health too badly if you drink once every three months. if you’re sober due to addiction then breaking sobriety has much bigger consequences