this is me this is me this is fucking me. I literally have to make excuses to my friends for why I can’t go out at night and it’s because I know I will always be desperately needing the shitter right as the clock strikes 12 because I take them at the same time every night and have timed them to always activate at night. Like how do I wean myself off.
i think it’s a relief mechanism if anything. Purging is a release and so when u shit out basically everything in your stomach it makes it feel empty & like physically makes u look skinnier. But the reason why I’m taking them now is like so far deep into it because now my body physically can’t shit without them lmao