I feel this so hard. if it helps I slid hard into ed’d behavior this semester and am now already at risk of failing an important class for my major 😓 I am no longer restricting and I’m doing sooo much better physically, mentally, and academically (but still might fail the class bc I screwed myself in the beginning!)

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I also was triggered by a memoir written by a bipolar author who seemed to be able to do it all like the ill person you’re talking about. but the reason she could do stuff is bc she was manic and that always catches up to you. that person may physically sick and likes school (consider it might be their only class too!) or it could be a case like the memoir lady where they are very mentally ill and it will catch up to them. you never know.

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If they have an ed or are struggling with some other health issue but they seem to directly contradict the only argument that has kept me from fully back sliding in the past 3ish years. Every time I see them I am confronted with the fact that they are continuing college in such an unwell state, and if they can do it why can’t I? I know the “logic” is flawed but it makes me feel like a failure and weak for not being able to relapse and do school at the same time

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