
By the way, I got more anxious after he was making what was supposed to just be kind of a funny joke about if weekend at Bernie’s was with a woman instead, and he was just making a joke that like they would probably pretend she was giving someone head so she wouldn’t have to talk and he kind of grabbed my head and did the motion towards his lap. Completely meant to be a funny joke, but I had someone do something like that to me in a non-joking way and it was very traumatic and I just feel
Like he’s mad, but he keeps telling me he’s not and he’s being nice about it. I think but I still just feel anxious that he’s mad and I’ve been trying to explain to him why I get this anxiety, but then I feel like he gets annoyed because he wasn’t the direct cause of the anxiety and he just simply made a joke that reminded me of something else and I don’t know what to do. I don’t know.