
Quite frankly I literally just got smacked in the face with it for no apparent reason. It was super sudden for me. It think the thing that fully got me to *accept it* though (longer process) was the fact that I just knew I hated the way I was perceived then. And that I didn’t like how my body looked. I wanted to look, sound, and be treated as a girl and it just made things fairly obvious. But that may not be as helpful for you since you’re more unsure.
Part of the way I got to accepting it was listening to other trans girls (mostly online tbh) talk about their experiences at the beginning of their transition and how they felt and how they knew. And it resonated with me. A lot of it felt familiar. And eventually I just could tell that I internally felt like a girl. Honestly I’d say just go for it and if you change your mind then you can stop. You don’t even have to get on hrt yet if you don’t wanna. Maybe tell a friend or a couple friends about