
I think I feel similarly. I’ve never really wanted to be trans, or seen as trans. I just want to be as cis passing as possible, and at the same time, I’m so envious of those who are proud of who they are. It’s like part of me wishes I could be proud and happy that I’m trans, but all I really want is to just be cis, or as close as I can get. On top of it all, I feel a lot of shame for feeling this way