ugh i feel that. i've been out as trans since nov 2023 but my parents are extremely transphobic (and mormon) and would probably cut me off if i came out to them so i've just decided to delay starting t/top surgery until after college (i'm gonna be a senior next year). but it hurts having lived for over a year and a half knowing i'm trans and not being able to do anything about it and feeling like i'll never be able to pass as a consequence