i first realised it by hearing about it and seeing how what trans women said resonated with me. i was about 10. unfortunately my parents found out and shut that down and i kinda forgot (or maybe repressed) for like 4 years. once i was 14 i heard somebody say something transphobic and it ruined my day way more than it would for any cis person. i rediscovered my transness a few days later.

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There wasn’t necessarily one particular moment, it was moreso a series of events that built up until the dam broke Never really fit in with groups of guys at all, and also never felt even any comfort in the social roles expected of men. There were also a lot of things that, in retrospect, should have been signs. I felt very envious towards lesbians and wanted to be one, felt that men’s clothing sucked and I was always grossed out wearing suits, and other things

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