Trans Talk on Yik Yak | i cant see myself as a woman 80% of the time, logically i know i experience a lot of physical dysphoria but i feel more like an autistic boy with a fetish and i hate it im on estrogen and ive liked the changes but i feel like i dont deserve it

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i cant see myself as a woman 80% of the time, logically i know i experience a lot of physical dysphoria but i feel more like an autistic boy with a fetish and i hate it im on estrogen and ive liked the changes but i feel like i dont deserve it

Anonymous 1d

You deserve it queen 🫶 the best thing you can do for yourself is live authenticity

Anonymous 22h

I feel that, I’ve been on T for several years now but part of me still doesn’t know how to drop the idea that I must just be a perverted autistic girl chasing after a goofy yaoi fantasy realistically though, if this was just a fetish, we wouldn’t be committing to it full-time with our own bodies! to be blunt, doing something for sexual gratification isn’t sustainable longterm like that because the thrill wears off over time

Anonymous 18h

You aren’t alone. I’m in same boat.

Anonymous

#1 1d

Authentically**

Anonymous

#1 1d

im trying but i honestly have no idea who i am. most of the time i dont feel like a real person, just someone pretending to be one

Anonymous

#2 21h

that im on e is definitely reassuring to me, but the fact that theres a sexual component to this stuff makes me incredibly uncomfortable and it sucks its just hard not to feel like im appropriating smth meant for other people

Anonymous

OP 20h

my thinking is that like, some cis women really enjoy wearing lingerie and taking stylized nsfw selfies and whatnot, right—getting to feel sexy, specifically As a woman, is part of both their sexuality & their relationship to gender. not all cis women of course, but many and so it makes sense that the same would be true of some trans women too! you deserve to experience that as unabashed self-love rather than something deviant, shameful or invalidating

Anonymous

#2 20h

im aware that a lot of women have sexuality as a part of their womanhood, but its a bit hard to get over it when you consider just how far i am from looking anything like a woman. the one time i tried on womans clothes i just looked like a crossdresser, and that combined with getting a sexual reaction made me want to tear my skin off

Anonymous

OP 19h

sorry, I know you know that, def not trying to talk down to you or anything. just wanna reaffirm for you that your womanhood doesn’t hinge on what you look like and isn’t at all negated by sexual feelings 🙏 but I realize that’s easy for me to say and Not easy to actually internalize when living in such a transmisogynistic culture. hopefully things get less difficult in that department over time once you’ve been on E longer

Anonymous

#2 19h

ty :)