
Looking back I definitely was getting attached but then why tell me how you miss me when I leave and how you like me and cuddle me and hold my hand and kiss my forehead? Were we drunk and high when we said all that? Yeah so ik I shouldn’t have taken it seriously. And then losing my virginity with this friend after months of warming into it meant more to me than I realized. I was super emotional the morning after when I had to leave and I wouldn’t blame them if they realized we shouldn’t do this
Anymore cause that was the last time we ever did anything, and that was almost 3 months ago. We were never into sexting so whenever we weren’t together we chatted as normal, but now they’ve stopped saying they miss me entirely and stopped sending suggestive texts. Ik I’m not entitled to an explanation cause they were clear to say this was all platonic but I still wish I knew if I did smth wrong. I felt so wanted and understood and gender affirmed for the first time and I feel like I fucked it up
cause I got too attached, and I’m too scared to ask in fear of looking more needy than I did that morning. The most I’ve done is suggest that I’m down for anything over the break if we’re both free just to open the door. Tho on one hand I’m glad we aren’t fwbs cause the attachment would’ve gotten worse as I hang out more with their friends and realize they’re just really affectionate with everyone