Yes I felt like that for a while. I still worry about it honestly but after a while I realized that 1. Those thoughts aren’t based off of anything other than dysphoria which isn’t usually the most objective source of information. 2. Even if you don’t end up passing why wouldn’t you at least try? I’m still closeted but I’ve been on E for months and it’s been great so far. I don’t know how long it will take to pass and I still worry about it being impossible for me but doing something about it is
Used to worry a lot. But 3 years in, I don’t care if I’m clockable. I’m proud of my transness, I would advertise it even if I was passing. I dress loud and fem. It makes me look and feel good. Despite not looking cis, my gender identity is so strongly communicated that I read as a woman. I get a fair amount of compliments, and essentially never get misgendered.