
beerzepub
I give people a pass for like 80% of the shit they did before realizing they’re trans because repression lowkey does send you into psychosiswhen covid hit i "desisted" for like a year and a half (my mom didnt want me to be trans & that combined with not being around other ppl made me convinced i could just decide to be a butch lesbian and it would work) and i would spend all my time texting my ex bf inflammatory transphobic shit like "you biologically cant change your sex" just to get into arguments. to this day i have no idea what possessed me to do that
i retransed bc when we came out of isolation i was she/her'd in public (after having passed since i was like 10 before that) and i realized "wait the only reason i was okay with just being a masc girl was because i was literally not around anyone and thus didn't have to think about my social identity at all" & then i had to deprogram myself for like 4 years in order to stop having insane internalized transphobia 😭