i feel this OP you’re not alone. recently i’ve realized i might be a femme trans guy after being on t for like 3 years. it was something i always experimented with but only felt comfortable presenting more feminine after developing more masculine traits from hrt.

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The labels are supposed to help so if they aren’t helping you don’t need to use them. Do whatever gives you gender euphoria as often as you can. I’m not quite understanding but I think you’re saying you want to present as masculine with makeup, is that right?

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It’s kinda common for transmasc people to be more comfortable experimenting with more traditionally fem things the more masculine their body gets on HRT. I’d experiment and see what combination of things feel right and go from there. Labels are hard to find when you don’t understand yourself yet, I wouldn’t worry about finding labels as much until you experiment more. If you need labels to feel comfortable in that time I’d just use something like nonbinary or genderqueer

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