Trust me this is normal😭 It took me a long ass time to figure out whether I actually wanted to transition or not. I ended up wanting to and it’s been like five months now and I absolutely do not regret my decision. I think the reasoning for why this happens is just cause you’re so so SO used to how you’re currently living and how you’ve always lived. So such a big change is hard to grasp. For me I figured it out via gender therapy so if that’s an option for you I’d recommend it.
yep super normal! someone told me i can always change my mind if i don’t like it, so i decided fuck it we ball. it’s a lot clearer now than it was before. i still have some doubtful days, but the thoughts are usually accompanied with “i don’t pass [so i can’t be trans]”, which is the root of the doubt for me at least. anyway if you feel confident enough give er a go online somewhere! and maybe buy yourself some nice clothes to try in private:) that should help answer things at least a little bit