It’s rly difficult. But don’t be afraid of trying multiple different names. My deadname is hyper feminine, no way around it. I tried a new name w some close friends but something ab it felt off. Tried a new name and felt more fitting so I’m going by it everywhere. But the transition is rly awkward and uncomfortable sometimes :/ I’m in college and the change up around a bunch of acquaintances makes me feel awk… but in the end I’m happier and ik post grad no one will know my dead name!