ok so I get what you mean. my dysphoria was never super super bad. like I was able to exist as a man, but it just... kinda felt off? like i was playing a part. and what really helped me figure it out wasn't identifying the dysphoria, but identifying the gender euphoria, and the fact that I was happier when I was recognized as a woman.
I relate to this. Very few times I have felt an overwhelming urge to change myself and be a woman, but the few moments where I imagined myself being one and felt genuinely happy clashed with my contentment of being a man. I’ve realized lately though that there isn’t any rush nor anything wrong with trying stuff out. I’m considering myself genderfluid now and sometimes I wear a skirt and a wig, but I look like a boy most of the time, and that’s super okay!
me personally, my dysphoria didn’t manifest until puberty. i wasn’t uncomfortable being in my body until it started to change in a way i felt was “wrong” or “unnatural”. it almost felt like playing a part or living someone else’s life. Also, it’s perfectly fine to experiment with gender and accept that you are comfortable in the one you are born in. Finally, gender is a spectrum so don’t feel as if it is necessary for you to “choose” one way or the other. Hope this helps :)
Ok, this just came in, I tossed it on, threw some sock balls in, and I barely even notice it’s there. Been wearing it for 2 hours, and it feels normal. But more importantly I was excited when I saw the package had arrived. I hadn’t realized how much I was anticipating its arrival.