
it’s gonna kill you. if you think you need to get on hormones then do . it’s that easy. i was still they/theming it but i was at least on e2 and spiro. they were just trying to suppress it. i knew it wouldn’t work forever but i wasn’t close enough with them to put the screws to them like i would with most ppl. and i guess i gotta carry that till i die
don’t blame yourself op. people kill themselves for a whole pile of reasons and we have no control over all of it. maybe hrt would’ve helped, but it likely wouldn’t have changed much. peoples lives are full of good things and bad things. one good thing isn’t gonna take away all the bad. what they really needed was a good therapist. someone who could hear them and feel their pain too. to help carry all that weight for a while until they gained the strength to shake it off.
besides all of that, not every trans person wants hrt. each person’s journey is unique. don’t get me wrong, i’m loving hrt for me, but it’s not a fix all. the only way to really fix your problems is to interrogate them. sometimes that interrogation gets heated. sometimes people give up because it’s too much. the only thing we can do is try to be supportive. and if that doesn’t work, we can only mourn
not what op said. op said they didn’t “transition” (i.e. socially or medically). the social stuff is usually what’s heavy mentally. in regards to hrt, op also said “chose not to”. hrt is not transitioning. someone who can’t or doesn’t want to do hrt can still be 1000% trans. don’t disrespect the dead by putting words into their mouth.