i am going to distance myself. whatever space they need. hurt as it will, the idea not having them in my life worse, but i love them even more and owe to them. i’ve offered to be a safe space to carry that weight, feeling much the same should they need it
I should’ve tried harder to keep them away from me. I’ve never seen anything line this. Maybe I have? Idk. I’ve seen dissociation in different forms. This was different. Almost like I drained them of their life?